im feeling down
today
for some reason
uncertain too.
ytd evening
was really great
as we'd a special feast
for the whole christian family
over at aunty sharon's place
was fun too.
but i will
continue to pray hard
for faith,
hope, love and
strength.
praise the lord.
i wanna thank father lord
for everything.
especially for today,
and up till today
i'm able to stand up
by myself already(:
halfway there
though,
will continue to strive hard.
miss jessica mei alot!
god bless.
almost lost my life
just like that
ytd night
cried and
fell flat on the ground
with no strength at all
i only could
remember that
i was trying hard to grasp for air
that i just couldn't
breathe
was too much of oxygen for my lungs
my muscles were all tensed
unable to relax
was then given a plastic bag
to breathe
i slowed down
but still tensed
i knew i wasnt awake
i just doze off like that
feeling exhaust
the feeling of leaving was there.
somehow scary but
at the same time
thinking if i were to let go &
just leave
wouldn't be a bad choice too.
but i woke up
found myself on the bed
already.
thank god
i was saved
for once more again
my relapse was here.
till the day
i still thank god for what
had happened to me.
i knew i wasnt meant to leave
here yet
but to continue to have
faith and strength.
thank Lord.
-deep loved.